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'Were you crying when you were stabbing him?'

  • Jodi Arias cracks under intense cross-examination
  • Arias claims she killed ex-boyfriend Travis Alexander in self-defense
'Were you crying when you were stabbing him?'

Jodi Arias broke down on the stand Thursday during an intense exchange with prosecutor Juan Martinez. Instead of letting up, Martinez continued to push her, asking her, "Did you cry when you were stabbing [Travis Alexander]?" -- but the judge intervened. Judge Sherry Stephens recessed the court for lunch as a visibly shaken Arias sobbed with her head down.

Arias earlier described how she thought Alexander was going to pummel her after he body slammed her to the floor, a point Martinez contested. "I can only say what was going through my head, not what he actually did," said Arias.

Read more: 142 evidence photos from the Arias trial

Read below for minute-by-minute updates from her testimony Thursday (best read from the bottom):

6:29 p.m. ET: Martinez is asking Arias about why she said in an interview that no jury would convict her. Arias is maintaining that she was planning to kill herself. Martinez has wrapped his cross-examination. Judge Stephens has recessed court until Monday. Arias will be back on the stand for re-direct examination by her attorneys.

6:27 p.m. ET: The attorneys are at a sidebar with Judge Stephens.

6:26 p.m. ET: Martinez may be wrapping up his cross-examination of Arias. He is recapping some major issues he has covered. He is asking her whether her journal mentioned anything about Alexander masturbating to an image of a little boy.

6:23 p.m. ET: Arias said Alexander was "hyper-sexual." Martinez asked her if she was enjoying it. Arias said, "Mostly yes."

6:22 p.m. ET: Martinez is showing the jury an email Arias sent to Alexander three days after killing him to advance her alibi yet again. In the email, Arias writes about how much they will enjoy their trip to Oregon.


6:17 p.m. ET: Arias texted Alexander two days after he died to further her alibi. She said she was afraid of the consequences of killing him, and didn't want to be caught.


6:13 p.m. ET: Arias said she ultimately made the decision to visit Alexander in June 2008.

6:08 p.m. ET:

6:07 p.m. ET: Martinez is now playing the voicemail Arias left on Alexander's home in an attempt to create an alibi. On the recording, Arias talks about taking a trip with Alexander to "Crater Lake."

6:05 p.m. ET: Arias admits that as she in this "fog" she tried to create an alibi for herself with leaving a voicemail on Alexander's phone.

6:03 p.m. ET: Martinez wants to know if she was in a "fog" after killing Alexander, how was she able to call Ryan Burns and make up a lie.

5:58 p.m. ET: In the desert, Arias washed her hands with bottled water and changed her clothes.

5:57 p.m. ET: Martinez pointed out there was no reason for her throw away the rope after killing Alexander, because it had nothing do with killing him.

5:56 p.m. ET: Arias is so upset she is bent over crying and blowing her nose in tissues.

5:53 p.m. ET: Fighting through tears, Arias admitted that she slit Alexander's throat from ear to ear. She also said she stabbed him in the chest.

5:51 p.m. ET: Martinez has moved on the knife that was used to kill Alexander. Arias is crying now and will not look at Martinez. He wants to know why Alexander had so many stab wounds to his back. If Alexander's back was to her he wasn't a threat according to Martinez.

5:46 p.m. ET:

5:45 p.m. ET: Arias said she took the gun and dumped it in the desert. Martinez doesn't understand how if she was in a "fog" how would she know to take the gun from the crime scene.

5:42 p.m. ET: Martinez asked Arias if filled her car up with the three gas cans in her trunk while in Arizona. Arias said no she did not need to do that.

5:40 p.m. ET: Arias only looks to see the photos of the crime scene when Martinez asks her a question. Martinez showed a picture of a bloody water marks on a cardboard box in Alexander's bedroom.

5:37 p.m. ET: Arias agreed with Martinez that Alexander had to be standing over his sink for his blood to splatter there.

5:34 p.m. ET: Arias is crying as Martinez displays crime scene photos investigators took of Alexander's bedroom.

5:31 p.m. ET: Martinez is showing the jury another photograph from Alexander's camera that shows blood on his hallway floorboards.

5:29 p.m. ET:

5:28 p.m. ET: Police found Alexander's camera in his washing machine with the pictures of Alexander's body deleted. Arias said she must of put it there, because Alexander never left his bathroom.

5:23 p.m. ET: Martinez is showing a picture he says shows the killing in progressing.

5:22 p.m. ET: Arias said she does not remember anything after she shot Alexander and he screamed that he was going to kill her.

5:21 p.m. ET: Martinez is asking Arias if Alexander's roommates were home when she killed him. Arias said she doesn't know if they were home.

5:19 p.m. ET: Arias is back on the stand. Martinez asked Arias if she killed Alexander. Arias said she did it, and was the only person involved.

4:59 p.m. ET: Judge Stephens has stopped court for the afternoon recess. 

4:58 p.m. ET: Arias said she doesn't remember a lot after that. She does remember dropping the knife and screaming. The attorneys are at a sidebar.

4:56 p.m. ET: After Alexander was shot, he allegedly threatened to kill Arias.

4:52 p.m. ET: Arias said she never seeked medical help for any of the injuries she supposedly suffered from Alexander attacking her.

4:51 p.m. ET: Martinez asked Arias if she ever asked Alexander to stop attacking her. Arias said she screamed at him to stop right before she shot him. She also said she her memory starts to go out right after she shot him.

Martinez asked, "It appears then that your memory becomes faulty immediately upon you shooting him?"

"Yeah, things get very foggy from them," said Arias.

Martinez said, "The shot takes him down and creates a fog for you."

4:48 p.m. ET: Arias said she closed her eyes as the gun went off, and Alexander began to scream.

4:47 p.m. ET:

Martinez asked, "If that’s the first thing that happened how it is it then, ma’am the shell casing, exhibit 11 then ended in blood?"

"It didn’t land in blood," replied Arias.

4:46 p.m. ET: Martinez showed the jury a picture of a bullet casing sitting in a pool of blood.

4:43 p.m. ET: Arias just demonstrated for the jury how Alexander tackled her like a linebacker as she shot him.


4:34 p.m. ET: Testimony should resume in a few moments as attorneys handle an issue behind closed doors.

4:25 p.m. ET: It seems like Arias is going to demonstrate how Alexander lunged at her. Judge Stephens has made everyone leave the courtroom, and she order the cameras turned off.

4:23 p.m. ET: Judge Stephens has sent the jury out of the courtroom. She said they will be called back in about five minutes.

4:22 p.m. ET: The attorneys are still at a sidebar.

4:20 p.m. ET: Martinez asked Arias to demonstrate physically how Alexander lunged at her. Defense attorneyNurmi asked for a sidebar.

4:19 p.m. ET: Arias said the gun was knocked out of her hand, and they both fell back into a trash can.

4:17 p.m. ET: Arias said Alexander lunged at her like a linebacker as she shot him.

4:16 p.m. ET:

4:15 p.m. ET: Arias said the gun when off then Alexander impacted her.

4:13 p.m. ET: The attorneys are at a sidebar.

4:12 p.m. ET:

Martinez said, "How far away this individual was when you had the gun out? The gun that you brought from Yreka, didn’t you?"

"No," said Arias.

4:11 p.m. ET: Arias said she was a few feet away when she shot the gun. Martinez said it seems like it was about three feet away from a diagram of Alexander's bedroom.

4:09 p.m. ET: Arias said she was able to get away from Alexander after she bolted from his closet. She had the gun in both hands when he was running after him.

4:06 p.m. ET:

Martinez asked, "You chose to escalate this didn’t you, even though you had the 12 foot head start, didn’t you?"

"No, I didn’t choose to escalate it. I was trying to deescalate it," replied Arias.

Martinez said, "And you chose to deescalate the situation by according to you getting a handgun, right?"

"Yes," replied Arias.

4:04 p.m. ET: Martinez has moved back to the events of June 4, 2008. Arias said she ran out of the closet with the gun as Alexander was trying enter the closet.

4:03 p.m. ET: During an argument with Alexander, Arias texted what Martinez said seems to be a threat of physical violence.

The text message sent from Arias said, “I’ll whatever you in the nose, Travis."

Martinez asked, "You think that’s funny. That’s a joke?"

"That was his joke that he used to say," replied Arias.


3:55 p.m. ET:

3:54 p.m. ET: Martinez is now asking about previous fight Arias had with Alexander before he died on June 4, 2008.

Martinez said, "Nowhere in those text messages does he ever threaten you physically, does he?"

"No," replied Arias.

3:53 p.m. ET: Martinez pointed out that non of the clothes in Alexander's clothes were disturbed even though she allegedly climbed the selves to get the gun. Martinez even showed this crime scene photo to prove his point.

3:49 p.m. ET:

Martinez asked, "But, ma’m this is a very small closet isn’t it?"

"No, It’s bigger than the cell that I live in," said Arias.

3:47 p.m. ET:

3:46 p.m. ET: Arias said Alexander's closet is bigger than the cell she lives in. Martinez took exception to Arias' statement, and asked her if she has a problem answering the questions as they are posed. Arias replied, "No."

3:44 p.m. ET: Martinez doesn't understand if Arias was running away from Alexander why she didn't just keep running out of another exit of the closet. Arias said at some point Alexander started to come to the closet as she was stepping up on the shelf to get the gun.

3:41 p.m. ET: Arias said for a brief period of time she was in the closet by herself.

3:38 p.m. ET:

3:37 p.m. ET: When she reached Alexander's closet she slammed the door, and in a split second she got the gun to defend herself.

3:36 p.m. ET: After Alexander slammed her on the bathroom floor, she got up and Arias said she heard him running after him.

3:34 p.m. ET: Arias is back on the stand, and Martinez is asking about what happened in Alexander's bathroom the day he died.

2:51 p.m. ET: Watch Arias choke back tears as Martinez grills her about stabbing Alexander with this link:

Watch: Jodi Arias breaks down on the stand!

1:55 p.m. ET: As Arias cried, Judge Stephens recessed court for lunch. The live blog will pick back up when testimony continues at 3:30 p.m. ET.

1:49 p.m. ET: Martinez showed a picture of Alexander's dead body in the shower. Arias began to cry, and couldn't answer Martinez's questions.

Martinez asked, "Were you crying while you were shooting him?"

"I don’t remember," replied Arias.

Martinez said, "Were you crying when you were stabbing him?"

"I don’t remember," said Arias.

Martinez asked, "How about when you cut his throat, were you crying then?"

"I don’t know," replied Arias.

1:48 p.m. ET: Arias said she was able to get away from Alexander and run down his hallway.

1:47 p.m. ET: Martinez took issue with the fact that she just "perceived" what Alexander was doing at the time.

"I can only say what was going through my head, not what he actually did," said Arias.

1:44 p.m. ET: Arias said she "perceived" that Alexander was trying to get on top of her after he body slammed her.

1:42 p.m. ET: After hitting the bathroom floor, Arias rolled over, got up and ran to his closet.

1:41 p.m. ET: Martinez wants to know if she had trouble breathing after she supposedly had the "wind knocked out" of her. Arias said she doesn't remember if she had trouble breathing.

1:39 p.m. ET: Arias said when she hit the bathroom floor it knocked the "wind knocked out" of her.

1:36 p.m. ET:

1:35 p.m. ET: Arias seems confused about whether Alexander was still partly in the shower when he body slammed her.

Martinez asked, "You hit your head, but you remember everything. Based on what you’re telling us you still have a good memory of what happened, right?"

"Up to that point," replied Arias.

1:34 p.m. ET: Martinez is asking Arias what happened to the camera after Alexander slammed her on the floor. Arias said she didn't know what happened to the camera, because she was focused on Alexander.

1:32 p.m. ET: After Alexander exited the shower, he allegedly slammed Arias on the bathroom floor.

Martinez asked, "Is this the same mean look you told us that you remember back from August, 2007?"

"It’s a look I’ve seen more than a few times," replied Arias.

1:31 p.m ET:

1:30 p.m. ET: Arias said after she dropped the camera, Alexander stepped out of the shower and yelled at her.

"I dropped it when I was facing this way. It landed on the mat right about here and sort of did a little double bounce on the tile right here," said Arias.

1:28 p.m. ET: Martinez is continuing to walk through the photos Arias took of Alexander just moments before his death.

Here are some notes on the photos of the last moments of Alexander's life compiled by In Session producer Emily Kean:

June 4th timestamp: 5:22:24 Neck down of Travis- he’s facing the right

June 4th timestamp: 5:22:36   Travis’ back-neck down (exhibit 142)

June 4th timestamp  5:22:54   Travis’ back in the shower—very dark image (exhibit 140)

June 4th timestamp: 5:24:30   Right side of Travis’ head, he’s looking down (exhibit 147)

June 4th timestamp  5:24:48   Left side of Travis’ head, he’s looking up (exhibit 148)

June 4th  timestamp: 5:24:52   Wider shot of left side of Travis’ head/looking up (exhibit 149)

June 4th  timestamp: 5:24:56   Shot looking up at Travis/left side of his head (exhibit 150)

June 4th  timestamp: 5:25:00    Darker shot of Travis,  looks like left side of his body with his arms above his head (exhibit 151)

June 4th timestamp  5:26:56    (exhibit 153)  NOT SHOWN

June 4th timestamp  5:27:12    (exhibit 154)  NOT SHOWN

June 4th timestamp  5:27:18   (exhibit 155)   Left side of Travis
June 4th timestamp  5:27:28  (exhibit 156)    NOT SHOWN

June 4th timestamp  5:28:54   (exhibit 157)   NOT SHOWN

June 4th timestamp  5:29:12     (exhibit 158  NOT SHOWN

June 4th  timestamp: 5:29:20   Travis looking at the camera –see his face(exhibit 159)

June 4th timestamp:  5:30:30   Travis sitting down in the shower (exhibit 160)

Notes on Accidental photos:

June 4th timestamp: 5:31:14   bathroom ceiling (exhibit 161)

June 4th timestamp: 5:32:16   Travis on the floor bleeding (exhibit 162)

June 4th timestamp: 5:33:13    Baseboard with blood on it (exhibit 163)

1:24 p.m. ET: Arias got confused by Martinez questioning.

Martinez shot back, "Do you remember that we’re talking about Travis Alexander, let’s start with that."

"Yes, I remember," replied Arias.

Martinez asked, "That’s why we’re here because you killed him, right?"

"Yes," said Arias.

1:20 p.m. ET:

1:19 p.m. ET: Martinez is walking Arias through photos of Alexander showering that were taken just moments before he died.

1:15 p.m. ET: Martinez is now showing other supposed accidental photos from Alexander's camera. Arias said the photos are inadvertent, because she wouldn't take them.

1:13 p.m. ET: Martinez is showing the jury a picture of Alexander's camera that shows the bathroom ceiling of Alexander's bathroom. He wants to how she knows it was an accidental photograph.

1:09 p.m. ET: Arias said she is unsure who deleted photographs off Alexander's camera, but she thinks Alexander deleted the sex pictures from June 4, 2008, shortly after they were taken.

1:06 p.m. ET: Arias said she first saw Alexander's new camera in a picture he took of himself in the mirror. Martinez is asking Arias who deleted photos off Alexander's camera shortly after he died.

1:02 p.m. ET: Martinez is asking Arias about her experiences with Alexander's new camera that sparked the fight that culminated in her allegedly killing him in self-defense.

12:59 p.m. ET:

12:56 p.m. ET:

12:55 p.m. ET: Arias maintains she did not see Alexander shave on June 4, 2008.

12:53 p.m. ET: Martinez is questioning Arias about whether Alexander had shaved on June 4, 2008. A photo of Alexander from the day he died shows him close shaven. In the interrogation tape, Arias told detectives that she convinced Alexander to take the shower photos, while he was shaving.

12:50 p.m. ET: Arias testified Alexander wanted to have the pictures of himself taken in the shower on June 4, 2008. In the interrogation tape, Arias can be heard telling detectives she had to convince Alexander to take the pictures.

12:45 p.m. ET: Arias said after Alexander got angry about the CD, they had sex. She said they then went up to his bedroom so she could take pictures of him. Martinez said Arias told investigators a different story. He is about to play an interview between Arias and police detectives.

12:44 p.m. ET: Martinez is asking about how Alexander became enraged because a CD did not work and bent her over a desk and had sex with her.

12:41 p..m. ET: Arias said she isn't sure when she packed her car on June 4, 2008, and she said she does not know if he helped her put the luggage in her rental car.

12:38 p.m. ET: Martinez is asking Arias when she put her luggage in her rental car, just moments before Alexander died on June 4, 2008.

12:34 p.m. ET: Arias is on the stand, and the attorneys are at a side bar.

12:25 p.m. ET: The attorneys are in the courtroom. Testimony should pick back up in a few moments.


During direct examination, Arias said Alexander attacked her June 4, 2008, after she dropped his new camera, and she shot him in self-defense. She claims that she doesn't remember stabbing him. The medical examiner testified earlier in the trial that Alexander was stabbed multiple times, his throat was slit from ear to ear and he was shot in the head.

Arias said she found the gun she used to shoot Alexander in his closet as she tried to escape his wrath. On Wednesday, Martinez pointed out that Arias told Mesa, Arizona, police Det. Esteban Flores during the investigation that Alexander did not own a gun.

Read more: In Session's live blog of Wednesday's testimony

"You didn’t know it was going to be important back then in 2008 this issue involving the gun, and that’s why when he asked you about it you said ‘no, he doesn’t have any guns’ because it wasn’t important at that point because you couldn’t foresee the future,” said Martinez.

On Wednesday, Martinez also showed the jury text messages and played voice recordings meant to prove that Arias was always a willing participant in her sexual adventures with Alexander and not a woman forced to comply with Alexander's erotic demands.

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