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On her last day under direct examination by the defense, Jodi Arias wrapped up her testimony on the witness stand Wednesday, explaining why she killed her ex-boyfriend Travis Alexander.
"I remember I was in the bathroom, I remember dropping the knife and it clinged to the tile and it made a big noise. And I just remember screaming," said Arias.
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On Wednesday, the climax of the trial so far, Arias revealed several bombshells along the way, including that she bought a gun after Alexander's death ... to kill herself. "I just wanted to die," she said. She also revealed that she took care to cover her tracks as the slaying drew national attention. "I wanted the world to believe that I loved him and I didn’t have anything against him. I wanted the world to perceive me as a normal person," said Arias.
Court will resume Thursday with prosecutor Juan Martinez's cross-examination of Arias.
In Session is live-blogging Arias' testimony Wednesday. Click here to read In Session's live blog of Tuesday's testimony (Read below for minute-by-minute updates from her testimony today (best read from the bottom up):
5:37 p.m. ET: Judge Stephens has recessed court for the day. She says there is a matter she needs to discuss with the attorneys behind in her chambers. Testimony will pick back up Thursday at 12:30 p.m. ET, when prosecutor Juan Martinez will begin his cross-examination of Arias.
5:35 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi said he has ended his direct examination of Arias. The judge has ordered the jury out of the courtroom.
5:34 p.m. ET: Arias is talking about how she confessed to killing Alexander in the spring of 2010.
5:31 p.m. ET: Around the time of the interview, Arias said she hoped to kill herself before her case ever made it to trial, and that's why she said no jury would convict her.
5:25 p.m. ET: Arias said she gave an interview to "Inside Edition." Defense attorney Nurmi's examination of Arias seems to be coming full circle now. He began his questioning of Arias by asking her about why she told "Inside Edition" that no jury would find convict her.
5:23 p.m. ET: Arias is talking about who she told about her sexual relationship with Alexander after his death.
4:59 p.m. ET: The judge has recessed court for the afternoon break. The live blog will resume when testimony picks back up at 5:20 p.m. ET.
4:53 p.m. ET:"I sugarcoated everything I said, everything was rosy," said Arias.
4:51 p.m. ET: Arias said she carefully crafted her answers in her interviews with the media, including her relationship with Alexander.
4:47 p.m. ET:
4:46 p.m. ET:"I wanted the world to believe that I loved him and I didn’t have anything against him. I wanted the world to perceive me as a normal person," said Arias.
4:41 p.m. ET: The attorneys are at a sidebar with the judge.
4:39 p.m. ET: Arias is talking about the media interviews she conducted after Alexander's death.
4:37 p.m. ET:"I bought a bunch of Advil. I took it all over the next few days so that it was in my system. And they have razors there … I took it apart one night with intentions of slitting my wrists," said Arias.
4:36 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi is asking Arias about her suicidal thoughts after her arrest. Arias said she took a bunch of pills and thought about slitting her wrists.
4:33 p.m. ET: Arias said one of the reasons she lied to Flores is because she was worried about tarnishing Alexander's reputation.
4:31 p.m. ET:
4:30 p.m. ET:
4:29 p.m. ET:"I began to tell him things I thought would comport with what the forensics would show," said Arias.
4:28 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi asked Arias why she told Flores two intruders killed Alexander. The attorneys are now at a sidebar with the judge.
4:26 p.m. ET:"I just denied it. I guess I didn’t understand that I could be quiet and not say anything at all," said Arias.
4:24 p.m. ET: Arias said she didn't tell Flores what happened to Alexander, because she was scared of what could happen. She also said she didn't want her family to know she killed Alexander.
4:22 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi is asking Arias about how detective Flores interrogated her after being arrested.
4:20 p.m. ET: Arias said she was arrested the same day she was about to leave for a trip to Monterey, California.
4:18 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi and Arias are discussing the law of attraction, and how she had adopted it as her philosophy in 2008.
4:15 p.m. ET:
4:13 p.m. ET: Arias said she would get upset about Alexander's death at night, because that's when he would usually call her.
4:11 p.m. ET:
4:09 p.m. ET:"If I had just left before any of that happened, I have a million regrets. I mean I was scared of him and I reacted but I will always regret that," said Arias.
4:08 p.m. ET: Arias said she had a "million regrets" about what happened to Alexander.
4:07 p.m. ET:
4:06 p.m. ET: The attorneys are at a sidebar with the judge.
4:04 p.m. ET: Arias said she felt Alexander's presence after the memorial service at a friend's house.
"He helped me to know that he was OK and he was in a better place. And maybe that he wasn’t mad anymore," said Arias.
4:02 p.m. ET: Arias said she blamed herself for Alexander's death. The attorneys are at a sidebar with the judge.
4:01 p.m. ET:"Whenever he lost his temper, he seemed genuinely ashamed about himself afterward. And that’s not the kind of person I believed he was at the core of himself or who he wanted to be," said Arias. "I believed in him, that he wanted to be a good person."
3:59 p.m. ET:"Because he would have come to mine. Even if it was in Antarctica," said Arias.
3:57 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi is asking Arias why she attended a memorial service for Alexander. Arias said she thought it would be suspicious if she didn't show up. She also started to cry as she told the jury about a promise Alexander and her made to attend each other's funeral.
3:55 p.m. ET: Arias is talking about a camping trip she planned to take with some friends shortly after Alexander's death. She said she bought the gun to take with her, because the trip was going to be with a bunch of guys. After the episode with Alexander, Arias said she did not feel safe with men.
3:51 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi asked Arias why she called Flores multiple times while he was investigating Alexander's death. Arias said she called him to try to figure out how much time she had before he arrested her.
3:48 p.m. ET: Arias said when she called detective Flores shortly after Alexander's death she was worried about telling the truth so she kept up the facade she began in Utah.
3:46 p.m. ET:"Still to this day, I wish it was just a nightmare. I wasn’t able to just deny it as much in my head. It was more like facing me squarely," said Arias.
3:45 p.m. ET: Arias said she hung up the phone with the bishop, and she was worried about being arrested.
3:44 p.m. ET:"I was hoping the whole thing wasn’t real and it was just a nightmare and of course I was hoping none of that had ever happened," said Arias.
3:42 p.m. ET: When the bishop told her Alexander was dead she doubled over and began to cry. She said she was hoping that nothing had happened and thought it was just a nightmare.
3:41 p.m. ET: Arias is back on the witness stand. Defense attorney Kirk Nurmi is asking about her conversations with Alexander's associates after his death. He says Alexander's bishop told her Alexander was dead.
1:56 p.m. ET: Judge Stephens has recessed court for lunch. The live blog will continue when testimony picks back up at 3:30 p.m. ET.
1:55 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi is asking Arias about her conversations with Mesa Police Det. Esteban Flores.
1:53 p.m. ET:"I began to prepare for like, there were things that I didn’t want to come out about Travis or that I was participating in with him. So, I got rid of the clothes. I got rid of the boy underwear," said Arias.
1:51 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Nurmi is asking Arias about a gun she bought in California after Alexander's death. Arias said she bought the gun to kill herself.
1:49 p.m. ET: Arias said she did not tell her family about killing Alexander. She said she just waited to be arrested.
1:47 p.m. ET:
1:45 p.m. ET: Arias said when she finally arrived home in Yreka, California, a few days later, she wanted to end her life. She says that at some point she contemplated suicide.
1:43 p.m. ET:
1:41 p.m. ET: Arias said she did not know her license plate was upside down when she was pulled over in Salt Lake City. She said she thinks some "skaters" turned it upside down as a practical joke.
1:38 p.m. ET: The attorneys are at a sidebar with the judge.
1:36 p.m. ET: Arias is talking about how she kissed Ryan Burns the day after Alexander died.
1:35 p.m. ET:"I was contemplating what behavior anyone would expect out of me which would just be the same me or normal or the same happy-go-lucky self that I tried to always be," said Arias.
1:33 p.m. ET: Once she arrived in the Salt Lake City area, Arias said she tried to act normal around her friends, and act like herself.
1:31 p.m. ET: Arias said on her way to see her friends in Salt Lake City, she left a voicemail on Alexander's phone to establish an alibi for herself. She said it took her multiple times to leave this voicemail, because she kept crying.
"I knew that my life was pretty much over, but I didn’t want anyone to know what had happened or that I did it. So, I started taking steps of what I could in the aftermath of it to try to cover up that I was there," said Arias.
1:28 p.m. ET:"I was feeling a whole lot of emotions. Mostly I was very scared and I was very upset… I just wanted to die," said Arias.
1:27 p.m. ET:
1:26 p.m. ET: Arias said at some point on June 4, 2008, she wanted to die.
1:25 p.m. ET: "I was scared. And I couldn’t imagine calling 911 and telling them what I had just done," said Arias.
1:24 p.m. ET: "I started thinking of what I could do to delay the inevitable," said Arias.
1:23 p.m. ET:
1:22 p.m. ET: Arias said she headed out to see her friends near Salt Lake City, because they were expecting her. Near the Hoover Dam, Arias said she realized she was in big trouble. Defense attorney Nurmi asked Arias why she didn't just call 911. Arias said she was scared.
1:19 p.m. ET:"I wish it was just a nightmare that I could wake up from. And find out that everything was still the same way," said Arias.
1:17 p.m. ET: Arias said at some point she realized in the desert that her life was over, and she knew Alexander was dead.
"I knew that it was really bad. And that my life was probably done now," said Alexander.
1:16 p.m. ET:"Yes, when I finally came to, I realized there was blood on my hands and I didn’t have my shoes. I was in the middle of the desert so I pulled over," said Arias.
1:15 p.m. ET: Nurmi is asking about Arias' actions after she left Alexander's house on June 4, 2008. Arias said she threw the gun away in the desert. She also said she had blood on her.
1:11 p.m. ET: Arias said she remembers dropping the knife and being "freaked out."
"It was like mortal terror. I pissed him off the worst I’d ever seen him pissed off. I tried to stop him and then I’d piss him off even more," said Arias.
1:10 p.m. ET:"I just remember more the feeling during that time. Not pictures and things that I can bring back," said Arias.
1:09 p.m. ET:"I have no memory of stabbing him," said Arias.
1:07 p.m. ET: The defense attorney is asking Arias questions about the knife used to stab Alexander. Arias said she only vaguely remembers putting the knife in the dishwasher. She also said she remember dropping it on the bathroom tile and it mad a big noise, and she began to cry.
"I remember I was in the bathroom, I remember dropping the knife and it clinged to the tile and it made a big noise. And I just remember screaming. I don’t remember anything after that," said Arias.
1:04 p.m. ET: Arias said she doesn't remember stabbing Alexander on June 4, 2008, and she doesn't remember dragging his body or placing it in the shower.
1:03 p.m. ET: Arias said she doesn't remember a lot from June 4, 2008, again hinting at the trauma of the day.
"He had almost killed me before. And," said Arias.
Defense attorney Nurmi said, "And what?"
"There’s a lot of that day that I don’t remember. There are a lot of gaps. I don’t remember the poses of the pictures," said Arias.
1:02 p.m. ET:"As he was lunging at me the gun went off. I didn’t mean to shoot him or anything. I didn’t even think I was holding the trigger. I was just pointing it at him," said Arias.
1:00 p.m. ET: Arias said she grab the gun and ran out of the bathroom. She turned around and pointed it at him with both hands, but he didn't stop. He lunged at her and the fell. She said she didn't even know if the gun had gone off. She didn't mean to shoot him. Alexander said he was going to killing her.
12:58 p.m. ET:"I was scared. I was thinking crap because this is everything I was trying to avoid downstairs when he started to get mad… I still screwed it up. And now he’s pissed again,' said Arias.
12:57 p.m. ET: Arias said she got a gun from Alexander's closet after he started chasing her for dropping the camera. She said she pointed it at him to get him to stop chasing her.
12:55 p.m. ET: Defense Attorney Nurmi just walked Arias through the accidental photos the camera took during her final altercation with Alexander. Here is a link to those photos: Travis Alexander's last moments alive.
12:54 p.m. ET: The argument from earlier in June 2008 was about whether Alexander was dating another girl. During this argument, Alexander began banging his head on a linen room door. He grabbed her by the wrist and said he wasn't dating the girl.
12:50 p.m. ET:
12:48 p.m. ET: Arias is talking about a previous incident where Alexander chased her around his house.
12:47 p.m. ET: Arias is choking back tears. She said she dropped Alexander's camera, and he became enraged. He body slammed her on the tile floor of the bathroom. Arias hid in the closet to get away from Alexander.
"He lifted me up as he was screaming that I was stupid idiot and he body slammed me again on the tile," said Arias.
12:44 p.m. ET: Arias said she did not have a gun or a knife with her while Alexander was showering.
12:43 p.m. ET: Defense attorney Kirk Nurmi is asking Arias about a photo shoot Arias was about to conduct with Alexander in his bathroom on June 4, 2008. Arias said they chose his shower for the photo shoot for a photo effect.
12:41 p.m. ET: Arias is taking the witness stand, and jury is walking into the courtroom.
12:40 p.m. ET:
12:39 p.m. ET: The attorneys are at a sidebar with the judge.
12:38 p.m. ET: Judge Sherry Stephens is on the stand, and testimony should pick back up any minute.
On Tuesday, Arias’ testimony may have placed one of the murder weapons at the scene. Arias said Alexander used a kitchen knife to cut some rope for one of their sexual encounters on June 4, 2008. After he was done, Alexander placed the knife somewhere in his bedroom or his adjacent bathroom. Arias said she was unsure of the exact placement of the knife. Earlier Tuesday, Arias testified that her memory from the day Alexander died was spotty, hinting at the trauma she endured that day.
So far, Arias has not mentioned where the .25 caliber handgun used to shoot Alexander came from.
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Arias' testimony has methodically walked through the major events of her life, starting with childhood.
Alexander died on June 4, 2008. He was shot in the head, stabbed multiple times and his throat was slit.
Arias’ testimony picked up Wednesday where she left off the day before, with her describing how she was about to photograph Alexander’s newly sculpted physique in his bedroom moments before she killed him.