Olympic athlete Oscar Pistorius says he accidently killed his girlfriend, and he is “mortified.”
The judge upgraded the charge against Pistorius Tuesday to premeditated murder, saying he could not rule out the possibility that Pistorius planned the killing.
Pistorius told a South African judge in a statement read by his attorney Tuesday that he was "deeply” in love with his girlfriend, Reeva Steenkamp, and had no intention of killing her.
“I fail to understand how I could be charged with murder, let alone premeditated murder because I had no intention to kill my girlfriend,” said Pistorius in his statement.
Pistorius was too upset at Tuesday’s proceeding to speak for himself. He wept so much Tuesday, the magistrate paused the hearing and asked him to compose himself. The hearing is being held to determine the charges against the track star, and whether he will be released from custody as he awaits his trial.
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In the statement, Pistorius describes how he got out of bed on February 13 to close a sliding door, and heard a noise in the bathroom:
“I’m [acutely] aware of people gaining entries to homes to commit crime, I’ve received death threats. I sleep with my 9 mm under my bed. I woke up to close the sliding door and heard a noise in the bathroom. I was scared and didn’t switch on the light. I got my gun and moved towards the bathroom. I screamed at the intruder because I did not have my legs on I felt vulnerable. I fired shots through the bathroom door and told Reeva to call police. I walked back to the bed and [realized] Reeva was not in bed. It then it dawned on me it could be her in there,” he said in a statement.
“I tried to help her but she died in my arms. I am mortified,” said Pistorius in his statement.
During Tuesday’s hearing, prosecutors fought back against Pistorius’ claim that he accidently killed Steenkamp, saying it would make no sense for an intruder to hide behind a locked bathroom door. Instead, they argued Pistorius attached his legs, and walked 7 meters (23 feet) and shot her through the bathroom door, after a heated argument.
The hearing will pick back up Wednesday, and Pistorius will spend another night at the police station where he has been held since his arrest on Valentine’s day.