In his first interview since Whitney Houston’s death, Bobby Brown said he still loves his ex-wife and misses her more than anything.
Sitting down with the Today Show’s Matt Lauer, Brown said that despite their ups and downs, the love was always there.
“Our relationship was great," revealed a somber Brown. "I had 14 beautiful, beautiful years with that woman. I can honestly say that I love that woman with -- with everything that I am. And I believe she loved me the same way."
Brown also emphasized that he was not the one who introduced the pop icon to drugs, saying, “I worried about it when... we first got together until I tried it," he said. "And when I tried it, for some reason, I have an addictive personality."
Brown acknowledged that while Whitney had tried drugs before they had gotten together, there might have been something he could have done to protect her. “I could have done something different, you know to -- ensure that she had a longer life. But... you have to want it, you know?"
For the very first time, Brown tells Matt Lauer how he found out about Whitney's death. It was Brown's New Edition bandmate that broke the news. "I heard the news, actually through Ralph [Tresvant]. He had his phone in his hand and he said he just got a text... and pulled me outside and said, 'You know, I just heard this, you know that Whitney has just passed,'" Brown told Lauer.
Brown then called his daughter Bobbi Kristina, but someone else answered the phone and confirmed Whitney was gone. "I just started crying," said Brown. "You never expect someone close to you to just, you know, die. It was really hard."
Brown told Lauer that though he’ll be getting remarried in the near future, he still holds a special place in his heart for his late wife. "My fiancée knows how I felt about that woman. My kids know how I feel... how I felt about Whitney. It's not a secret, you know? I was in love with her deeply."